just a vent... nothing personal

you know, there are days when I just don't know how I make it though. today is one of them. when your so called friends start un-inviting you to things.... wtf? on top of my wonderful (not quite) hubby has decided that I'm not good enough to sleep with anymore. One would think that after three months of being gone one would jump at the opportunity to make love to ones wife.. nope not my hubby.... he come home on tuesday and here it is thursday night/friday morning and nothing..... I'm not even sure he has even kissed me.... how sad is this? pretty sad I think. oh and then there is the thing were I found some condoms in his suit case when I was unpacking.... not the brightest one.... on top of everything... I found out that there are people in "swing" scene that have noticed that my wonderful hubby and his not so wonderful dance partner are to close. I for one happen to agree they are way to close..... not that i'm saying anything is going on but he dose have a tendency to fall for his dance partners..... (Danielle.... BITCH) ok.... I'm don't with that. ...... ugh. I'm not a very happy camper right now.......

life

wow I didn't realize its been since OCT! ::hides::
seeing my cousin post on blog spot reminded me I actually have one... LOL

Things have been ok. trying to get over the crazy Christmas crap that went on back home.
my baby girl turned 5 last month. wow... So now I have a 5yr old, a 3 yr old and a 19 month old... am I nuts????!!

on a serious note I think I'm actually gaining weight... not loosing it. I'm not happy.... now I have to figure out a way to fix that problem... guess I have to wait till hubby gets home from school in DC on the 1st. The Gym here I come.... I need this... ugh.

so I have crazy people who live on either side of me. I'm in unit B.. the woman in A has it in for everyone else, I swear! she gets off on threating to call children's services on everyone. She actually did it to the woman in C. I couldn't believe it! ugh.... so now I'm paranoid. grrr . the thing is Ty did NOTHING wrong! her son missed the bus (for a school that is within walking distance from my house!) ugh.

ok, so my best friend here, Brina, has an adorable little boy. he was born with CANCER and the damn NICU people didn't even catch it. it is in his eye and they could have found it it they were doing their job right. she found out when he was about 5 1/2 months old. they had just got re stationed in Alaska. they we days away from getting their house when they were sent to Philli for cemo. I new something was wrong with him and we kept saying over and over but would they listen to us.. nope, they know more then we do... ugh damn military doctors!!!

my other best bug here in VA just fount out her hubby is going to be sent to Korea in August, 3 days before their oldest turns 4. she is just torn up by it. I know exactly what she's going to be going though. .... ugh damn military....

now my long time best friend lives in FL and she just found out she's pregnant with number 3!!! yay!!!!! so it looks like I might be taking a trip to FL in Nov. :) hehehe. exciting :)

well I guess thats all for now. till next time.

I just don't get it. How can things get so horrible? life was pretty good and then he had to go off to Korea.... Jacob was 2 months old and I found some emails... fooling around in Korea... so damn pissed :( and then i got conformation that he had fooled around on me before... before I was pregnant with Katie. that hurt like nothing else. I was crushed. my son, 2 months old and I find all this out. I had 6 months of him not being there to figure things out. I decided I wasn't giving up on a 6 year marriage. we were finally past all this when I found out something... ugh... just a consequence, nothing huge. but it still opened old wounds. :( it made me look at whats going on now and mow my gut is saying that there is someone out there that has a major crush on him. I don't know about how he feels but i know that thats how things start... a crush. i am so scared that my marriage is going to end because he cant keep his pants zipped. I don't want to go to his command but I'm scared I might have to. :(

life

It's been a while.... sorry.
Well there is a bit going on. I wound up going down to Florida to get Alexis. That was OK. I had a few things to take care of. my sister came back with me and stayed for about 2 weeks. during that time Alexis got her ears pierced! lets see... Alexis has to have eye surgery this week. I'm not looking forward to that. Chris is gonna take the day off to stay with the other two while I stay at the hossy. its all out patient.
well it seams like everyone is getting ready to have a baby or just recently found out they are pregnant. or they are ttc. i want another one.... i would love one right now but thinking about it that would be hard on me. Alexis isn't even in school yet. so Chris and I had a nice talk. He said that we could have one more when Katie starts kindergarten! I am excited about that. I didn't think he would agree... but he did. :) so now i just need to start a baby fund. I want this time to be right. I want to be able to decorate a nursery. I also want to be able to get anything I want for the baby. clothes, bouncer, swing etc. I also want to be able to have pro belly pics taken. there is just so much i want to be able to do for the last one.

MY BIG GIRL

first thing... I woke up the other day to find the hampster had died....

warning... this is about potty training!

I had Chris pick up a potty for Katie Bug the other night. My thoughts were that with Alexis gone for a few weeks we could hopfully get potty training going. I was just hoping she would have some intrest in it. Well the next morning when she woke up I showed it to her. She got all excited. i told her if she went pee pee on it that daddy would bring her a surprise! she got all excited and took her diaper off. she was done with it. she asked me for panties. we went upstairs and got them. we played for a bit and watched a movie. When I put Jacob down for a nap we both naped on the couch. when we woke up I thought she was going upstairs but she didnt. next thing I know she is coming up saying mommy theres pee pee in there!! and she pointed to the bathroom. sure enough there was. I am so proud of her. she has gone in it all day and just a bit ago she went poop 2!!! I am soo proud!

oh man!

So last night I was talking to one of my best friends and realized I that my lil friend should show up soon, or should already be here.. its actuallt frusrating that its not here. we are using protection....but you know how that gose... dosnt always work.so last night i went and got a test.. neg.. but my mind will not be at ease untill i do start. ugh... to make matters wrose, my friend Katie called today and told me she was pregnant. I told her, don't jinx me! she had just found out she was pregnant with her son 2 weeks before i found out I was pregnant with Jacob... ugh LOL.... lalalala

so sad

I feel absolutly horrible. I went to get Ara, our hampster out of her cage and found our she has wet tail. wet tail is usually deadly. they say is is stress related and if that is the case then I think it happend when my dad and i changed her cage and she met Ruby for the first time when she was in her ball. usually i put ruby in the kitchen when she is in the ball. there is nothing I can do at this point. I know i did not catch it in time to take her in and try to get her better. she already has mucus on one eye. she most likley will be dead by morning. I just don't know what to do. when she does die i'm probably going to get rid of her cage and if we get another hampster then i'll get another cage. I don't need another one die because of contamination. i just don't know what to do or how to tell the girls.